Saturday, August 6, 2016

Homeschool Curriculum Plans for 2016-2017

I know, I know...I skipped doing this last year.   Saweee!  Here ya go....

Sixteen years of homeschooling.  Wow.  Seems like five.  Anyway, blah blah blah...here's what I am doing with the kidlets this year...

After you look through all of this you might be thinking, "How in the WORLD does she organize all of this?"  I create, throughout the year (rushing sucks) a schedule for EACH child.  Yup.  If I don't make these, things get behind and/or not done.  "I" have the final decision on what books we will/will not read...not some boxed up curriculum.  I tried that for YEARS and it drove me batty.  Some books were GREAT, while others...."ZZZZZZzzzzzzzzzzz."  Being in control rocks.  Totally worth the time.  And, yes, it takes time to schedule them all, etc.

IF you would like to see how I schedule, feel free to message me (you'd have to give me your email, though)...a "safer" way would be to message me on Facebook here:  Tracey's Facebook.  However, please let me KNOW that you have messaged me, because my security is high and it will go into a "Message Requests" folder...I might not notice it for a few days...or weeks.

EVERYONE

The Mystery of History, Volume III -- NO, we don't do every project; NO -- we don't do the memory cards...I have more "NO's."  Do what works best with YOUR children.




Teaching Textbook Math - Even ol' mom is doing Algebra I, II, and Geometry in the next few years.  

Learning Language Arts Through Literature





English From The Roots Up, Volume 2



Living books - most of which are found by looking through All Through The Ages OR Learning Language Arts Through Literature.  ***Please note -- I strongly encourage you to read these books WITH your children (you read a page, they read a page, or whatever works best).  These are the most precious times of our homeschooling.  Yes, even with the high schooler's.**  It's a great bonding time. I can't WAIT to read the books I've chosen for this year with them.  




Bible - 4th grader - Bible Stories To Read


Bible - 6th grader - various Bible reading plans from the Early Reader's Bible
NKJV Early Readers Bible  -

Cursive - 6th grader - A Reason For Handwriting Cursive D
A Reason For Handwriting: Cursive D--Student Worktext, Grade 4   -     By: Carol Ann Retzer, Eva Hoshino


HIGH SCHOOLER'S
9TH GRADER
Bible - Our Daily Bread (including the "Read Through The Bible in A Year" plan)



Spelling - Apples 2



Handwriting - A Reason For Handwriting Cursive E
A Reason For Handwriting: Cursive E--Student Worktext, Grade 5   -     By: Carol Ann Retzer, Eva Hoshino

Typing Instructor


Science - Apologia General Science with Student Notebook (no review, sorry for the words)



12TH GRADER
Bible - Our Daily Bread (including the "Read Through The Bible in A Year" plan)


History (also listens in on our MOH reading above) All American History - Part 2
All American History Volume 2 Student Reader  -     By: Celeste W. Rakes

Science - Apologia Biology w/Student Notebook


Personal Finance package from My Father's World
60280

Logic - The Fallacy Detective & The Thinking Toolbox
27080


Friday, March 4, 2016

Fervent - Strategy 5: Your Past - Ending the Reign of Guilt, Shame, and Regret

As stated before, what I'm going to do for the Ten Strategies that Priscilla Shirer speaks about in ten different chapters of her book, Fervent, is just post my prayer that I came up with after reading the chapter.  I would encourage you NOT to just copy what I pray and use it in YOUR war room, but use it, if you feel led, as a guide.  What I did, with each "Strategy" chapter, was highlight areas of the chapter that really seemed to speak to ME, to jump out at ME; and for each of us, that will not always be the same parts of the chapter.  Then, I took all of that, and reworded it, when needed, to make it my own prayer.

My prayer is that this will help you as you create your own war room, learn from Priscilla's life experiences, and become a prayer warrior of God that is fervent and wearing the full armor of God to stand against the devil and his plot to destroy you! Stand firm!



My Past
Lord, I ask in your name to not let my enemy to use my forgiven past to poke holes in my future.  Satan, you may NOT mock and malign me, make me feel as unforgiven and unforgiveable as possible, and then encourage me to point the finger at all the other people who are more to blame, more at fault, than I should ever consider myself to be. I know that if you can’t make me feel judged, that you’ll try turning me into a judge. I will no longer let you remind me that I’m the one who has given you so much material to work with, in Jesus' name. Lord, please help me to learn from my past, to teach from it...to help steer others who might one day face the same set of choices (our children, for example) toward an alternate ending that’s likely to result in something more favorable for them.

Don’t let me feel, instead of celebrating God’s grace, undercut by continual guilt over the same old things.  Remind me, instead, to experience the ongoing, residual blessings of being regenerated by His Spirit – all things new – instead of feeling caught in the spin cycle of ceaseless regrets.

Remind me to wipe my tears away.  That that road is behind me now. You have other roads in store for me in the future; roads You’ve been preparing for me. Just as I’ve passed the exits of shame, so I now am beyond the pain that accompanied it. You make all things new.

Remind me that the past is in the past. It doesn’t have permission to touch me anymore. And that I would soon be traveling to new places of freedom and fullness I’d never seen before.  It is done. I am free.

Satan, you can rant and threaten and how-dare-you all you want, but here’s why I can plug my ears, ignore your accusations, and sing God’s praise while I walk away with real pardon in my heart:

First – God, You don’t live in the past. Because you, God, my God, exist outside of time.  To You, it is not the past at all. In prayer, I am alone with You who sees me only as I am and have always been since that beautiful moment when I placed faith in You – holy, righteous, and blames; past, present, and future. You forgive my guilt, remove my shame, and declare Your work an established, all-the-time fact. With You, “the past” doesn’t even compute.

Second – We only live by Your grace, anyway.  All that stuff satan tries hanging over our head – those forgiven failings of ours are no longer reasons for shame but are now monuments to the totally amazing grace of God.  I mean, just look at what He is able to forgive.  Even this.  Even that.  Yes, devil, even THAT!  God, you are incredible...that you could forgive even that.

I know and believe that the glory You receive, and will eternally receive, from having saved our souls doesn’t come from all the good things we do for You.  Your glory comes from creating people of purity and spiritual passion who once did things like that. Like I’ve done. Like everyone has done.

So talk it up, devil. Because as high as you choose to ratchet it up, you’re only showing off “the breadth and length and height and depth” of the love of Christ extended toward me!  You can accuse me and my family all you want, but you can’t change what the cross has done to throw all your accusations out of court.

Thank you, Lord, that the gospel is so real and so great that it doesn’t eliminate our past but just so thoroughly deals with it. You forgive it. You change it. You transform all that mess into this huge mountain of grace that only takes us higher and closer to You. So now, instead of being a reason for endless shame, guilt, and regret, my past is a reason for endless worship and free-flowing testimony...and for a continual, grateful, heartfelt, prayer.

Remind me, Lord, that my past is NOT worse than anybody else’s. That we’re all on a journey here. We’re not perfect. We all struggle, but that prayer wakes us up with the mercies from God that are “new every morning.”

2 Cor 5:17
 “Therefore if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creature; the old things passed away; behold, new things have come.”

Isaiah 43:16
  “Thus says the Lord, Who makes a way through the sea and a path through the mighty waters, do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of the past. Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert.”

Psalm 30:4-5
“Sing praise to the Lord, you His godly ones,
And give thanks to His holy name.
For His anger is but for a moment,
His favor is for a lifetime;
Weeping may last for the night,
But a shout of joy comes in the morning.”

Isaiah 40:29-31
“He gives strength to the weary,
And to him who lacks might He increases power.
Though youths grow weary and tired,
And vigorous young men stumble badly,
Yet those who wait for the Lord
Will gain new strength;
They will mount up with wings like eagles,
They will run and not get tired,
They will walk and not become weary.”

2 Corinthians 12:9
“And He has said to me, ‘My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness.’ Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.”

Hebrews 13:8
“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.”

Fervent - Strategy 4: Your Family - Fortifying the Lives of Those You Love

As stated before, what I'm going to do for the Ten Strategies that Priscilla Shirer speaks about in ten different chapters of her book, Fervent, is just post my prayer that I came up with after reading the chapter.  I would encourage you NOT to just copy what I pray and use it in YOUR war room, but use it, if you feel led, as a guide.  What I did, with each "Strategy" chapter, was highlight areas of the chapter that really seemed to speak to ME, to jump out at ME; and for each of us, that will not always be the same parts of the chapter.  Then, I took all of that, and reworded it, when needed, to make it my own prayer.

My prayer is that this will help you as you create your own war room, learn from Priscilla's life experiences, and become a prayer warrior of God that is fervent and wearing the full armor of God to stand against the devil and his plot to destroy you! Stand firm!



My Family
Lord, help me always be aware of satan’s desire for targeting people who want to be closer to You.  I ask that you make my marriage and family bulletproof against any attacks.  May I always remember that our family is one of many billboards for the eternal, unchangeable love story between God and humankind.

Remind me that satan brings dissension, infuses tension, and unravels my sense of peace with disunity. Because ultimately he wants to destroy my family so that the billboard message we’re designed to project to the world is a picture that is, at best, laughable. Help me to remember that, according to Scripture, the number-one purpose of marriage is how it represents the mystery of the gospel in active, living form. I know we will never be a perfect representation, of course, since the best marriage we can possibly make on earth still involves a pair of fallen, broken people, but help me to keep in my mind at all times that marriage stands for the creation of unity among two people who were once separated in every way before love reached out and found the other – the way You reached out and found us, covenanted with us, and loved us, and despite who we are, despite what we’re like, still love us. Remind me that this image, more than almost anything, is exactly what the enemy wants to criticize unfairly.

Satan, I know you are the one who hangs around my family but isn’t part of my family. You’re the one who wants my marriage to suffer. You’re the one who wants my home to be a dueling battleground. You’re the one who’s most invested in sending each of us out the door every day vulnerable and susceptible to temptation, needy for the unconditional love and acceptance we’re supposed to be giving and receiving from each other.  No more!  Be gone!  We are onto you, and in the name of Jesus you may NOT do this to my family. Jesus is the Lord of this home, this family, and my marriage. You will no longer pull the wool over our eyes. I will no longer be fooled by your bait and switch, leading me to focus all of my resentment, displeasure, anger, outrage, annoyance, irritation, or exasperation on my man or my children instead of you.  So get out!  Go back to hell where you belong, in Jesus’ name. No longer will you make me miserable and exhausted and joyless and undone.  You will no longer take our picture of the gospel – my marriage and family - and tarnish, rip up, and smear it in the mud of failure; holding it up as fresh meat from the kill.  I know you want a piece of that action, and you may not have it. I ask Jesus to encamp his angels and his Spirit around our family, home, and marriage for protection, and you are not able to break through that. 

In Jesus’ name I pray that Chet WILL be the spiritual leader of our home; he WILL love me unconditionally and treat me as the princes he has always wanted, even when I don’t deserve it, but even when he doesn’t, I will still do my part; that we WILL love ALL of our children unconditionally, while bringing them up and training them in the ways of the Lord and in the way in which they should go; that we WILL love others even if they don’t love us back, as God puts on our hearts.  We WILL get beyond our pasts and honor the Lord for the rest of our lives.  In Jesus’ name, you stop lying to us and telling us we are not courageous or empowered by God to become all we are to become. 

Jesus, please help me to honor and respect him, even if I feel he doesn’t deserve it; to love my children unconditionally, and be the godly mother that they need.  We will raise them up to shoot them out into the culture, bearing the image of Christ to the world.  Lord, I pray that they will take bold stands of faith and influence around their friends, and that we will be encouraged by You to stand by whatever You are leading them to do.  I pray that they will raise up a whole other generation of little Christ followers, keeping our family burning red hot on enemy radar long beyond me and Chet’s lifetime, spinning up a legacy of faith that spirals forward undaunted in the future. 

I pray that you will keep homosexual, drug, alcohol, pornography, gambling, and any other ungodly tendencies and influences from enticing any of my children...strengthen all of my family in their weak areas when it comes to sin.  Give Christoffer, Tristin, Tasha, Jordan, Jaden, A.J., and Josh a desire to be strong and courageous…and to get it from you…and not believe satan’s accusations and lies. 

Remind me, Lord, to quit trying to be the Holy Spirit in my relationships, responsible for poking and prodding my husband until he finally sees things the same way I see them; that it is not my job to try to “improve my husband.”  You, Holy Spirit, all by Yourself, can do a much better job of it than I ever could.  Remind me to respect him and then leave the rest up to You, Lord; and please shine a spotlight on my own heart and actions that need a bit of work, too. 

I now know that the ONLY effective way to fight in marriage is to pray.  It is the only way to get up behind our problems and attack them at the roots. It’s how I isolate the real enemy. It’s how I keep him on his heels and off my man...and it’s how God gets through to ME.  What Chet needs right now is for me to become a soft, safe place for him to land, rather than a prickly, nagging source of contention that only agitates him and makes things worse.  Let me not forget this, Lord.

I pray that any future husband for Tasha will be set ablaze with love for Christ and a heart for leading her well and making their marriage a devoted priority.  I pray that You would guard his friendships and those who will influence the path he is taking even right now.  I pray that his passions would be attuned with an authentic faith, that his purity would be a matter of deep commitment, and that You would superintend the circumstances that bring the two of them together...all in Your perfect plan and Your perfect timing.  I also pray that they would have a heart for wanting Tasha to be a “worker at home,” and a homeschooling mom.

I pray that any future wives for Jordan, Jaden, A.J., and Josh will be set ablaze with love for Christ and a heart for respecting their husbands.  That they will be virtuous, and that you would guard their friendships and those who will influence the path they are taking even right now. I pray that their passions would be attuned with authentic faith, that their purity would be a matter of deep commitment, and that You would superintend the circumstances that bring the two of them together...all in Your perfect plan and Your perfect timing.  I also pray that they will wish to be a “worker at home,” and a homeschooling moms.

And Lord, when it comes to my influencing my family, keep me from being on their backs, up in their faces, but on my knees.  Keep me in my new fighting position.

1 Cor. 13:4-7
 “Love is patient, love is kind and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take into account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices with the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

Titus 2:4-5
Encourage the young women to love their husbands, to love their children, to be sensible, pure, workers at home, kind, being subject to their own husbands, so that the word of God will not be dishonored.

1 Peter 3:1-2
In the same way, you wives, be submissive to your own husbands so that even if any of them are disobedient to the word, they may be won without a word by the behavior of their wives, as they observe your chaste and respectful behavior.

Proverbs 31:11
The heart of her husband trusts in her,
and he will not lack anything good.

Proverbs 16:3
Commit your works to the Lord
And your plans will be established.

Proverbs 16:7
When a man’s ways are pleasing to the Lord,
He makes even his enemies to be at peace with him.

Proverbs 4:6-8
Don’t abandon wisdom, and she will watch over you;
love her, and she will guard you.
Wisdom is supreme—so get wisdom.
And whatever else you get, get understanding.
Cherish her, and she will exalt you;
if you embrace her, she will honor you.
  
Proverbs 4:25-26
 Let your eyes look directly ahead
And let your gaze be fixed straight in front of you.
Watch the path of your feet
And all your ways will be established.

Proverbs 3:25-26
Don’t fear sudden danger
or the ruin of the wicked when it comes,
for the Lord will be your confidence
and will keep your foot from a snare.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the Lord with all your heart
And do not lean on your own understanding.
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He will make your paths straight.

Proverbs 14:26
In the fear of the Lord there is strong confidence,
And his children will have refuge.

Psalm 78:6-8
They were to rise and tell their children
so that they might put their confidence in God
and not forget God’s works,
but keep His commands.
Then they would not be like their fathers,
a stubborn and rebellious generation,
a generation whose heart was not loyal
and whose spirit was not faithful to God.

3 John 4
I have no greater joy than this, to hear of my children walking in the truth.

Ephesians 4:29
Let no unwholesome word proceed from your mouth, but only such a word as is good for edification according to the need of the moment, so that it will give grace to those who hear.
  
Colossians 4:6
Let your speech always be with grace, as though seasoned with salt, so that you will know how you should respond to each person.

1 Peter 4:7-9
The end of all things is near; therefore, be of sound judgment and sober spirit for the purpose of prayer. Above all, keep fervent in your love for one another, because love covers a multitude of sins. Be hospitable to one another without complaint.

Romans 14:19
Pursue the things which make for peace and the building up of one another.

1 Peter 3:9
Not paying back evil for evil or insult for insult but, on the contrary, giving a blessing, since you were called for this, so that you can inherit a blessing.

Lord, I know I can’t always control all the discord and unwise choices that occur in the various corners of my house or among the people in my family; but I can, with Your help, make sure the only place I engage in combat is in the heavenlies, in prayer, in secret.  Remind me, Lord, please, to take the fight into my prayer room rather than my living room.

Fervent - Strategy 3: Your Identity - Remembering Who You Are

As stated before, what I'm going to do for the Ten Strategies that Priscilla Shirer speaks about in ten different chapters of her book, Fervent, is just post my prayer that I came up with after reading the chapter.  I would encourage you NOT to just copy what I pray and use it in YOUR war room, but use it, if you feel led, as a guide.  What I did, with each "Strategy" chapter, was highlight areas of the chapter that really seemed to speak to ME, to jump out at ME; and for each of us, that will not always be the same parts of the chapter.  Then, I took all of that, and reworded it, when needed, to make it my own prayer.

My prayer is that this will help you as you create your own war room, learn from Priscilla's life experiences, and become a prayer warrior of God that is fervent and wearing the full armor of God to stand against the devil and his plot to destroy you! Stand firm!



My Identity
Don’t let me believe the lie that I am not alive and free and empowered by Your own Spirit to fight victoriously against satan. Help me to relish who I really am instead of letting him keep me in a constant state of mourning; grieving over who I wish I was, exacerbated by insecurity and crippled by self-doubt. I am not lifeless, disengaged, and refuse to be brainwashed any longer into believing that I have nothing of value to offer. I was “formerly darkness,” but now “Light in the Lord…a child of light,” able, through You Lord, to produce the fruit of light. 

(Ephesians 1) Blessed be the God and Father of my Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed me with every spiritual blessing in the heavenly places in Christ, just as He chose me in Him before the foundation of the world, that I would be holy and blameless before Him. In love He predestined me to adoption as a daughter through Jesus Christ to Himself, according to the kind intention of His will, to the praise of the glory of His grace, which He freely bestowed on me in the Beloved. In Him I have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of my trespasses, according to the riches of His grace which He lavished on me. In all wisdom and insight He made known to me the mystery of His will, according to His kind intention which He purposed in Him with a view to an administration suitable to the fullness of the times, that is, the summing up of all things in Christ, things in the heavens and things on the earth. In Him also I have obtained an inheritance, having been predestined according to His purpose who works all things after the counsel of His will, to the end that we who were the first to hope in Christ would be to the praise of His glory. In Him, I also, after listening to the message of truth, the gospel of Your salvation—having also believed, was sealed in Him with the Holy Spirit of promise, who is given as a pledge of our inheritance, with a view to the redemption of God’s own possession, to the praise of His glory. For this reason I too, having heard of the faith in the Lord Jesus which exists among others and their love for all the saints, do not cease giving thanks for them, while making mention of them in my prayers; that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to us a spirit of wisdom and of revelation in the knowledge of Him. I pray that the eyes of my heart may be enlightened, so that I will know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the surpassing greatness of His power toward us who believe. These are in accordance with the working of the strength of His might which He brought about in Christ, when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, far above all rule and authority and power and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in the one to come. And He put all things in subjection under His feet, and gave Him as head over all things to the church, which is His body, the fullness of Him who fills all in all.

Transform the way I think of myself, receiving and believing my true identity – the one that was stamped on me the moment I ran to the foot of the cross. I will no longer believe his lies. I am equipped and entitled to stand up against him. I am not weak and helpless and he may not run roughshod over me or the things and people I love. He will no longer separate my practical reality from my true living reality. He may no longer wedge himself between the two and short circuit the free-flowing effectiveness I have as a wife, mom, friend, daughter, sister; all the places where You have placed me to be a light of Your grace, Your power, your love, and Your confidence. I will keep the truth about my identity.  I will wear the belt of truth at all times, which all of the pieces of my armor are tucked into and held together by. Trust must come first if I am to be effective.

2 Kings 6:17
 “O Lord, I pray, open my eyes that I may see.”

Romans 8:15-17
 “For I have not received the spirit of slavery, leading to fear again; but I have received the Spirit of adoption, by which I cry out, “Abba Father!”

Deut. 4:20
 “The Lord has taken me, and brought me out of the iron furnace, from Egypt, to be a people for His own possession.”

Isa. 49:16 
“Behold, I have inscribed you on the palms of my hands; your walls are continually before me.”

Jude 24-25
 “Now to Him who is able to keep me from stumbling, and to make me stand in the presence of His glory blameless with great joy, to the only God our Savior, through Jesus Christ our Lord, be glory, majesty, dominion and authority, before all time and now and forever.  Amen.

Fervent - Strategy 2: Your Focus - Fighting the Real Enemy

As stated before, what I'm going to do for the Ten Strategies that Priscilla Shirer speaks about in ten different chapters of her book, Fervent, is just post my prayer that I came up with after reading the chapter.  I would encourage you NOT to just copy what I pray and use it in YOUR war room, but use it, if you feel led, as a guide.  What I did, with each "Strategy" chapter, was highlight areas of the chapter that really seemed to speak to ME, to jump out at ME; and for each of us, that will not always be the same parts of the chapter.  Then, I took all of that, and reworded it, when needed, to make it my own prayer.

My prayer is that this will help you as you create your own war room, learn from Priscilla's life experiences, and become a prayer warrior of God that is fervent and wearing the full armor of God to stand against the devil and his plot to destroy you!  Stand firm!


My Focus
Help me to stop fighting for nothing, Lord. Help me to “Pay no attention to the man behind the curtain.” Help me to remember there is something I can’t see working underneath the surface, controlling and manipulating what I can see. Help me to never underestimate satan’s power, that he is a treacherous, conniving, hell-bent, personalized menace; to remember that I need to fire my weapons at HIM…instead of being an easy target. That the temptations that appeal to my specific desires (and the fact that they appear at my weakest, most vulnerable moments) are no accident. Give me a peace that is the deep, inner, eternal balance that’s not subject to external circumstances. Help me apply what I believe – to put my feet to my beliefs. Keep on my whole armor and not let satan’s forces wreak their havoc in this heart, in this house, on this family, or on this day.

Psalm 30:1 
“I will exalt You, Lord, for You rescued me. You refused to let my enemies triumph over me.”

Micah 7:8
 “Do not rejoice over me, O my enemy. Though I fall, I will rise; though I dwell in darkness, the Lord is a light for me.”

Psalm 41:11
 “By this I know that You delight in me: my enemy does not shout in triumph over me.”

Psalm 138:7
 “Though I walk in the midst of trouble, You will revive me, You will stretch forth Your hand against the wrath of my enemies, and Your right hand will save me.”

2 Thes. 3:3
 “The Lord is faithful, and He will strengthen and protect me from the evil one.”

Fervent - Strategy 1: Your Passion - Getting It Back When It's Gone

What I'm going to do for the Ten Strategies that Priscilla Shirer speaks about in ten different chapters of her book, Fervent, is just post my prayer that I came up with after reading the chapter.  I would encourage you NOT to just copy what I pray and use it in YOUR war room, but use it, if you feel led, as a guide.  What I did, with each "Strategy" chapter, was highlight areas of the chapter that really seemed to speak to ME, to jump out at ME; and for each of us, that will not always be the same parts of the chapter.  Then, I took all of that, and reworded it, when needed, to make it my own prayer.

My prayer is that this will help you as you create your own war room, learn from Priscilla's life experiences, and become a prayer warrior of God that is fervent and wearing the full armor of God to stand against the devil and his plot to destroy you!  Stand firm!

My Passion
Lord, help me to never give up. To believe Your Word. Forgive me my faults, and I will forgive myself and others. You are not the great accuser. You are my hope-builder. My focus. My friend. I know You hear me and care…no matter how I “feel.” You never change. You give me the passion, and fan the flame. Not me. I will wait for you, and while I wait I will worship you, do my best to obey and trust You, and love You…even if the healing never comes.  I will still love you, Lord; I will still love You.

Psalm 51:10
 “Create in me a clean heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me.”

Lam. 5:22-23
 “The Lord’s loving kindnesses indeed never cease, for His compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is Your faithfulness.”

Ezek. 36:26
 “I will give you a new heart and put a new spirit within you. I will remove your heart of stone and give you a heart of flesh.”


Micah 12:20
 “Love the Lord your God with all your heart, and with all your soul, and with all your mind, and with all your strength.”

Wednesday, February 17, 2016

Fervent - First Things First

On our first night at my ladies' group after watching Fervent, before I even started reading the book, one of the leaders said, "Write a letter to God....just write down whatever comes to your mind and go...whatever has been on your mind.  This is just for you and Him..."  So, I did.  The words flowed...I'm a big talker, so I'm not surprised...

Now, I'm the transparent type...because, well, I've had times where I talk about how awful my life used to be because of bad decisions I've made, and because I used to suffer from chemical anxiety and depression...so I share all about it to anyone who will listen?  Why?  Because somewhere, out there, there just might be (and there actually has been a few times -- and I share those mistakes with my children when they are old enough to really understand) someone that hears me and thinks something like, "Oh wow...I struggle with that...and she got THROUGH it?  I want to know how."

So, I'm going to share with you exactly what I wrote.  Ready?

"Lord,

You know me, love me, and I am Your child.  I love You, but I am not where I should be, and only You can get me there.  Teach me, Lord, and keep me going in this war I am entering. I am excited about the victories You promise me, but you know how afraid I am and how easily I get distracted by the world and my selfishness.  You've made me a fighter, but I know I'm going about this the wrong way.  My filter on my words can be so thin.  I can be so hurtful, and too sensitive.  Please, Lord, change me.  Take me to where YOU want me to be.  Teach me, with Your truth and grace, how to represent You and lead my children and others to You.  Teach me to pray for my husband...I want that fairy tale love with him and I finally know...only YOU can DO IT.  I know that victories don't come by accident and that you made me to fight for it, in Your way.


- Tracey"

Right after I wrote that, another book I bought, and am going through, is The Love Dare.  Now, my marriage is at about 75% of what I want it to be...and how I think it should be...but I figured, what the heck, can't hurt to get some good ideas!  ;)  In the back of that book, is a page about how to pray for your husband.  I recommend that to everyone.  I'm not going to type that out.  Buy the book.  ;)